There is not a day that goes by that I do not think of my loved ones that has venture home from this life.Most recent my husband on 2/2/2015. Talking about world ending. After 35 years of marriage, Now everything I do is alone. , They year 2000 to 2003 was the worst yet. They say death comes in threes and now I sure believe it. In the 3 years I lost my mom, my father in law, and my brother in law. then in 2004 my sister and lastly my other sister. and finaly my husband. I miss them all so much.But my faith in God, and always in prayer, helped me alot, I seek no boyfriend now and sure do not want to do the marrige thing again. I just want to keep the memories, of what was. I'm blessed.I keep reading my bible of seeing loved again, and I look forward to that. I thank God I got the talent of my dad now gone as an artist, and the talent of my mother as a writer, along with her character. Missing my family means a lot to me, to know I can do this, I can move on. Time is what everyone needs to heal, to adjust, and to gain strength again. It is never easy. I been a widow 5 months now , it is not an easy process to adjust. I miss my hubby so much, I can never say "I just want to hear his voice one more time." One time more is never enough, I am managing, I am surviving, and I am moving on. Thoughts do run in my mind of doubts, but I ignore them because I know I can and I will , because I got that special God who can walk me through anything . Even this.